I will be right here waiting for you ♥

blackfairy44 @ 2006-08-03T01:21:00

2006-08-03T05:35:44Z

Using the new LJ

make sure you have it added

Kou_aloha

Yah for pizza and cheesey bread!

2006-08-01T18:15:25Z

Yesterday was pretty sweet. Hung around the house for a while. then chris ray and angelo came over and got me and we went back to chris' house. We watched the boondocks and ate pizza and cheesey bread. And of course tickled the hell out of russ(See chris' live journal for the video) After the pizza we went to the pool hall, and wow do me and chris suck at pool. lol. after pool we went to the willows. Played some air hocky and me and chris won tickets so we could get tacky braclets and candy. Then back to chris' house where we took cool pictures and kinda sorta watched POTC. Then russ drove me ray and angelo home.. and i slept most of the way.

today i'm hanging out with shannon angelo and possibley keren. Its going to be pretty sweet cuz i haven't really hung out with them since graduation. So i'm pretty stoaked.

Omg its the 1st day of august!. I leave in one month and one day!!! I have so much to friggin do!. Its insane!!!

i'm so scared//excited!

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-31T16:18:00

2006-07-31T20:26:51Z

I can't believe it is pretty much august! I'm so excited.

Things that will hopefully happen in august
*Get bellybutton pierced
*Beach it up with chris and other cool kids
*Nicoles going away party
*6 flags trip with lindsey and the rest of the gang
*Massive shopping trips
*Last days of working at NCC
*Girly day with lindsey and chris
*hopefully go up to seabrook for a bit and see everyone
*trip to Yummies with chris and who ever else comes
*Super Hope that Ashley will come vist!

woord august is going to be sweet

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-30T19:33:00

2006-07-30T23:38:22Z

i hate him, i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him.....

ok i feel a little better now

Its called interspieces erotica!

2006-07-29T05:23:30Z

Thursday- Stayed home pretty much all day and it was lame. until about 830 when i went to the beach with felicia and sam. It was pretty sweet. I got hit on by some guy we where talking to.Lol it was kinda funny.
Today-Went into boston with chris and mom, and we got lost and mom blamed us and it was really annoying and i wanted to hit her. When we got back we went to the mall with russ and ray.We all went to go see Clerks2. and it was soo fuckinh funny! I loved it with my life. After the movie we all went to the willows for a little bit. then to chris' house and watched "Dude, wheres my car?" and it was just a fun old time.

Have to work 2morrow. WICKED LAME! and Sunday morning... i hate it now but i'm going to love it when the pay check comes.

Sad:(

2006-07-27T22:30:29Z

i'm guessing i wont be enjoying warped tour 06...

Booo to that

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-27T11:51:00

2006-07-27T15:56:58Z

new lj

kou_aloha

add it bitches,
I'll start usinging it sometime in august once i get a better computer.

woord

You are so not a 34!

2006-07-26T02:45:38Z

So today was pretty damn sweet! I was supposed to go hangout with shannon but she wasn't feeling well and never called me back. So i met up with Lindsey at the store. Then we got droped off at Ryans house. and he wasnt there. so we walked back to lindseys... But as soon as we got to lindseys, ry called and said he was heading home with Andy J and Josh Connor. So we turned around and headed back to his house. We all hung out there and just talked and had a blast. At around 6:45 me and lindsey headed back to her house. We watched the break up which is kinda lame. but oh well. Then we printed out pictures to hang on Lindseys wall:). And now i'm home and watching rugrats all grown up like the cool kid i really am.

tomorrow is a lame babysitting day, but i think i'm only watching the little shits untill one. so it will be all good. I have to read my stupid "common reading" book, I'm on page like 90! WTF. i'm never going to finish it!. lol. so that is what i'm going to have to spend all day 2morrow doing. hopefully getting as much done as i can. I'm such a fucking slacker.

well thats about it
♥

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-23T22:39:00

2006-07-24T02:46:29Z

The last few days have been kinda lame. Working mostly. Which always sucks lol. But seeing the pay check always makes it worth while lol.

i really can't believe July is almost over. its soo strange, knowing in a little more than a month i'll be at SNHU!:)
August is going to be fucking jamm packed, Between work, school shopping, and seeing everyone before they leave, its going to be one hectic month. And i'm going to love every minute of it!

I ve got a jar of diiiirrrrrttttttt

2006-07-19T02:28:10Z

Today was pretty sweet. Woke up got dressed and took the bus down to lynn. Met up with lindsey and we jammed to APA! and Ashlee simpson. looked online, and saw that stupid sluts keep people in there myspace top 8's that shouldn't be there. (grrr). then we went to the beach and i talked to ashley! then me and linds went swimming for a while then came back to her house and showered. chilled out there and jammed to Tila Tequila, and then i had to attempt to walk home.. YES walk to lynnfield. But my aunt gave in and came and picke me up half way. lol. Now i'm jamming to ASHLEY PARKER ANGEL cuz i love him mucho. I love summer!

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-16T10:53:00

2006-07-16T14:58:22Z

cuz your loves the one worth waiting for...
♥

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-15T00:30:00

2006-07-15T04:35:40Z

A nutrious part of this complete breakfast: Orange juice
What's your favorite flavor of ice cream? Cherry Garicia, But triple carmel cunk is a close second
What's your favorite article of clothing? SHIRTS!!!!
Who's your favorite person? Either Danny Ashley or Chris
What's your favorite song? As of right now ummm, For a slow song, Chasing Cars by snow patrol, and for a fast(er) song, I am me by Ashlee Simpson
Who's your favorite singer? Ashlee Simpson and Christina Aguliera
What's your favorite thing to do on a rainy day? Go outside and puddle jump
What's your favorite place to go when you're upset? either someplace quite to read, or the spot
What's your favorite animal? White tiger
What's your favorite movie? Thirteen, Crule Intentions, Rent, Pleasentville
What's your favorite time of day? Midnight
What's your favorite day of the week? Fridays
What's your favorite month? September
What's your favorite reason to miss school/work?Drama Club
What's your favorite thing to do on a Saturday? Go to the willows or the beach
What's your favorite brand of shoes? Vans!!
What's your favorite color to wear? Brown, green and pink.
What's your favorite thing to eat? cereal.
What's your favorite thing to drink? diet green tea, white grape juice, and water
What's your favorite musical instrument? Drums

Phew, finally done with those...If you were a ____, what would you be?
If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?Butterscots chip
If you were a writing instrument, what would you be? erasable pen
If you were a food, what would you be? boca burger
If you were a school supply, what would you be?a computer
If you were a room, what would you be? Game room
If you were a song, what would you be? Invisable - Ashlee simpson
If you were a movie, what would you be? Crule intentions
If you were a toothpaste, what flavor would you be? bubblegum
If you were ice cream, what flavor would you be?Cookie dough
If you were a vegetable, what would you be? Brocoli
If you were a candy, what would you be? Hot tamales
If you were a musical instrument, what would you be? drums
If you were a household appliance, what would you be? coffee maker
If you were an article of clothing, what would you be? Shirts
If you were a reptile, what would you be? a snake
If you were a bug, what would you be? butterfly
If you were a frog, what color would you be? yellow and deadly.
If you were a sign, what would you be? no U turn
If you were a superhero, who would you be?Superman

Wasn't that an interesting section? So anyway. Would you rather...
Pet an alligator or a shark? shark. i'm scared of alligators lol
Eat a snail or a frog? snail
Shoot yourself in the head or jump off a building? Do it the good old fashion way and hang myself
Live in the forest or on a tropical island? tropical island
Walk ten miles or drive a hundred miles? Walk 10 miles.
Lose an arm or lose a leg? arm
Be blind or deaf? Deaf.
Be 10 years old forever or be 100 years old forever? be 10. as long as all my friends stayed 10 too
Drown or starve to death? starve
Have a lot of money but no friends or have a lot of friends but no money? lots of friends and no money. It the story of my life now lol
Skip lunch or skip dinner? both
Live without music or live without TV? Live without TV.
Be a good artist or a good poet? poet
Always have a headache or always have a heartache? headache
Never be loved by anyone or be loved by people you hate? umm, be loved by people i hate.
Be an only child or have 10 siblings? Only child. PSSH i'm a spoiled brat no way i want siblings.
Be extremely smart or just average? Be extremely smart
Not get enough sleep or not get enough to eat? Not enough to eat
Go to bed early and get more sleep or go to bed late and get less sleep? go to bed late and get the same amout of sleep as if i went to bed early lol. I usually wake ip around the same time everyday unless someone wakes me up earelier.
Be able to turn invisible or be able to read minds? depends if i'm able to controll the power to read peoples minds. I don't want to know everything they are thinking just the good stuff.
Would you rather be depressed all the time or extremely hyper and annoying?i am depressed all the time.
Not know how to swim or not know how to drive? Not know how to dive.. because i already don't lol
Eat cereal for every meal or eat pie for every meal? Cereal

Now for another important part of every survey: The This or Thats!
Black or white? Black.
Black hair or blond hair? black.
Mechanical pencils or regular pencils? regular i fucking hate mechanical pencials
Binders or accordion files? Binders i'm a binder whore lol
Heaven or hell? hell
Coke or Pepsi? Coke.
Sprite or 7up? Sprite
Hamburger or cheeseburger?neither
Milkshake or smoothie? milkshake
Lots of little presents or one big present? One big present if its something i really want.
Rain or snow? Rain.
Summer or winter? Summer
Math class or English class? accually i kinda like both, But if i had to have a hole day of one or the other it would be english .
Sunny or cloudy? sunny
Thanksgiving break or spring break? FUCKING SPRING BREAK! lol
Tall or short? short.
Neon colors or pastel colors? pastle
Shorts or pants? Pants
Black pen or blue pen? Black pen.
Messy or neat? Neat. i'm slowly becomming a super neat freak lol
Glasses or contacts? Glasses
Showers or baths? i love baths so much more than showers. i never take baths anymore. i never have time lol
Silver or gold? Silver all the fucking way lol!
Big or small? small
Skinny or fat? i'd rather be skinny, hahaha like that will happen
Upstairs or downstairs? downstairs
Food or drink? Drink.
Sweet or sour? Sour
Chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla.
Long or short? depends on what it is
Land or water? water
Train or plane? neither
Car or bike? bike
Cats or dogs? dogs.
Black and white or color? Color.
Hearts or stars? stars
Milk chocolate or dark chocolate? Milk chocolate.
Beach or forest? beach
Treehouse or underground lair?tree house
Batman or Robin? Batman
Smart or stupid? Smart.
Mentally retarded or dentally retarded?i have no fucking idea what that means
Scars or scabs? Scars
Blood or guts? Blood.
Day or night? night
Morning or evening? Evening.
Dark or light? Dark
Pretty or ugly? Pretty
Smiles or frowns? Smiles.
Asleep or awake? Awake.
The letter A or the letter Z? A
Beginnings or endings? beginnings.

Wasn't that fun? Another popular element of surveys: The Have You Evers!
Have you ever talked on the phone for two hours or more? hahah like all the time
Have you ever been on a rollercoaster? Yes. and i hated it
Have you ever been to another country? If brumuda counts then yes lol
Have you ever had surgery? no
Have you ever had a pet? Yes.
Have you ever skipped school? haha yah
Have you ever gone bungee jumping? Nope.
Have you ever been on an airplane for more than 10 hours? Nope.
Have you ever failed a test? Yes.:(
Have you ever sung a song onstage? yup yup best feeling in the world!
Have you ever gone 24 hours or more without sleeping? Yes.
Have you ever touched a snake? Yes.
Have you ever dialed the wrong number? Yes.
Have you ever punched someone in the face? hahah yah i used to be a wicked bitch
Have you ever read a book that was over 1000 pages long? nope but i want to. I should find a good one and do it up
Have you ever fallen down the stairs? haha yah. thats how i met my best friend
Have you ever stolen something from a friend's house? yah
Have you ever stolen something from school or work? i think so.
Have you ever broken a bone? No.
Have you ever been stung by a bee? Yes.
Have you ever tied someone's shoelaces together? yes
Have you ever climbed a tree? nope
Have you ever fired a gun? No.
Have you ever pressed all the buttons in an elevator? yeah, but i wait till i'm getting out and then just make the elevator have to stop on everyfloor
Have you ever dyed your hair? all the god damn time
Have you ever thought about killing yourself? oooh yah .
Have you ever tried to kill yourself? yes
Have you ever made up your own language? yah

Cool, well, this is almost over...just a couple more fairly short sections!
When was the last time you hugged someone? uhh today when i say lindsey and rach at the mall
When was the last time you laughed? today
When was the last time you took a test? ummm whenever my last final was
When was the last time you took a walk outside? yesterday?ish
When was the last time you played a sport? omg in waaayyy to long. I want to play lacrosse reallly bad like right now
When was the last time you watched TV? last night
When was the last time you ate junk food? today ick.
When was the last time you told someone to shut up? today .
When was the last time you were depressed? right now
When was the last time you wore shoes that were too small? yesterday cuz i stole my cousin shanes sandals to go outside with, and they are like half a size to small lol
When was the last time you got your hair cut? uhhhhhhhh, not including my bangs....september
When was the last time you walked up or down a hill? last time i was at my old house
When was the last time you took a shower or a bath? this morning
When was the last time you woke up? 11:30am
When was the last time you fell asleep? 2 or 3 am
When was the last time you had a meaningful conversation with someone? last night
When was the last time you smiled? today
When was the last time you cried? last night
When was the last time you read a book? yesterday.. soon to be today cuz i'm going to read before bed.
When was the last time you turned on your computer? now.
When was the last time you turned off your computer? earlier this morning
When was the last time you emailed someone? umm about and hour ago
When was the last time you turned on a light? 10 minutes ago when i got into my room
When was the last time you drank something? umm when i was at Dennys
When was the last time you yelled at someone? yesterday

Who-What-Where-When-Why. And also How, but mostly people forget that one.
Who was the last person you talked to? On the phone danny, online ashley
Who was the last person you emailed? Chantal
Who was the last person who emailed you? Chantal.
Who was the last person who made you smile? cingular.com cuz i got to download my ringtones.
Who was the last person who made you laugh? chris
Who was the last person who yelled at you? no one really
Who was the last person you yelled at? myself
Who was the last person you hit? no idea.
Who was the last person you laughed at? chris most likly
Who was the last person who made you cry? Myself
Who was the last person you made fun of? Myself.
Who was the last person you thought was really stupid? myself

It's almost over!! 3 Cheers for the end of this survey!!
What was the last word you said? ok
What was the last thing you ate? boca burger and fried from dennys
What was the last thing you drank? rasberry iced tea
What was the last thing you wrote down on paper? i don't know.
What was the last book you read? Sloppy firts and i'm in the middle of A great and terrible beauty
What was the last movie you watched? Pirates of the Carribean 2.
What was the last TV show you watched? The hills
What was the last video game you played? Some driving game at bonkers.
What was the last thing you thought before you fell asleep last night? I hate myself.
What was the last thing that made you laugh? That 70's show
What was the last song you listened to? Some song in chris' car
What was the last wish you made? Can't say or it wont come true

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-12T17:29:00

2006-07-12T21:39:16Z

ASHLEE SIMPSON CONCERT FUCKING ROCKED!

i don't care what bad things people have to say about her. I love her to death.And if i could.. i would have her babies. lol

I heart hanging out in boston with Lindsey and Gaby. they make my like..

and mike too, since he drove us to wendy's

not so much love when we had to drive down spooky street.
did not like that so much.

♥

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-07T13:26:00

2006-07-07T17:31:13Z

I fucking hate my dad!

i hope plan B works out of me

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-06T11:09:00

2006-07-06T15:14:45Z

Best
1. Male friend:Matt, Ryan, Mike, Danny
2. Female friend:Lindsey, Chris, Ashley, Zosia

Last person you:
1. Saw: Like everyone at Lindsey's party
2. Talked to on the phone:Danny<3
3. Hugged: mike
4. Text:Danny
5. Messaged over MySpace:Probley Danny i don't leave lots of myspace comments
6. Instant messaged:Mike

Today
1. Wearing: My SNHU shorts and my Air force shirt
2. Better than yesterday? not yet. but then again its only 10:22 am
3. Plans: for today, nothing really. I should make some.

Favorite
1. Number: 4
2. Color: pink, brown, green
3. Season: summer! and fall

Currently
1. Missing someone:ooh yah <3
2. Mood: kinda sick
3. Wanting:to go swimming

Q: first thing you did this morning?
A: went pee

Q: last thing you ate?
A: waffles

Q: do you have anything bothering you?
A:They way i acted last night

Q: what's annoying you right now?
A: The fact my cousins are watching the same sponge bob episodes they have been watching all week

Q: what's the last movie you saw?
A: In the theater, i think it was Nacho Libre

Q: do you believe in long distance relationships?
A: Yes and they don't suck as much as people make them out to

Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: Oh yah there always is

Q: where was the last place you went?
A: Lindseys Party

Q: who was the last person you called?
A: Danny

Q: been cheated on?
A: Oh yah

Q: do you look like your mom or dad?
A: Nope

Q: do you have any siblings?
A: nope. but its kinda like i do now since i live with my aunt

Q: do you smile often?
A: I try to smile alot more than i used to

Q: do you think that a person is thinking of you too?
A: He damn well better be lol

Q: choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
A: Well i already have love. So having beauty would be a nice thing to have.

Q: do you wish upon stars?
A: Yah

Q: are you a friendly person?
A: I try to be. I'm alot more friendly than i used to be

Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: mine

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
A: Gray

Q: when was the last time you saw your dad?
A: Friday

Q: do you have more guy friends or girl friends?
A: Guys i think

Q: when was the last time you cried?
A: Yesterday

Q: do you get angry easily?
A: Kinda

Q: what was your last thought before you went to sleep last night?
A: how horrible i can be sometimes

Q: take any vitamins?
A: i'm supposed to and i probley should start

Q: what are you about to do?
A: go pee

Q: what song are you listening to right now?
A: I'm not. I'm watching sponge bob with my cousins

Q: would you rather be single or in a relationship?
A: In a relationship

Q: do you ever check your phone while waiting for someone to call?
A: all the damn time. I'm a cell phone whore

RANDOM

1) Are your parents married or divorced? they where never married

2) Can you dance? yah

3) What do you wear to bed? tee-shirt, and sometimes shorts

4) Have you ever done anything illegal?yah

5) Are you closer to your mother or father?Dad i guess

6) Do you want to get married? ooh yah!

7) Future child's name? Girls either- Evelynn Summer, Alison Taylor, Kayleigh Anne. For Boys- Spencer Thomas, Riely Daniel, Aden Christopher

8) Do you snore?sometimes

9) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? London, Paris, Italy, Cabo, Japan,Australia, ahhhhhh friggin everywhere!!!

10) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Hahaha oooh yah!

11) If you won the lottery, what would you do first? Pay for school

12) Gold or silver? Silver

13) Hamburger or hot dog? Neither

14) When was the last time you cried? Yesterday

15) Ocean or pool? pool

16) What's your favorite song at the moment? Cashing Cars by Snow Patrol

17)If you could take back one thing in your whole life, what would it be? I don't know. I'm not sure if i would really change anything

18) How long do your showers last? half hour, sometimes longer

19) Cake or ice cream? Ice cream cake!

20) Where do you wish you were? with danny

21) Last gift you received? Tinkerbell note book from Lindseys for my birthday!

22) Things you spend a lot of money on? Clothes!

23) Can you sing? I try but i don't do it well

24) last person on your mind? Danny

25) what's your least fav. chores? DISHES!

26) Favorite drink? Iced Tea

27) What are your favorite shoes? My adidas sandals

28) Do you like amusement parks? Yah

29) Do you ride rollercoasters? no i'm scared to death of them

30) Can you touch your tongue to your nose? nope

31) When was the last time you were in the ocean? i haven't gone in the water at the ocean all summer. But i have been to the beach to tan

32)Who was the last person to go to the movies with you? Danny and Jenett

33) What's one thing you really hope to do this summer? Hang out with Ashley!, and everyone else

34) Do you like to go Mini-Golfing? YES

35) What was the last restaurant you ate at?the 99

36)Do you play any sports?Not at the moment, But i want to play field hockey and volleyball next year at school

37)What were the last 3 movies you watched? Spongebob episodes with the little cousins. My best friends wedding. annnd the notebook

38).Are you currently fighting with anyone?I'm not fighting with anyone, but a certian person still can't keep her attitude to herself. and pisses me off

39)When was the last time you went to a fancy restaurant? pshhh i don't go to fancy restaurants

40)What was the last thing you bought? Clothes

41)What's the farthest you've ever traveled from home? brumuda

42)What have you done today? nothing yet

43)Are you happy with your life right now? ooh yah!

44)What's the last thing you ate? waffles

45)What's the next important date on your calendar? The Ashlee Simpson concert

46).Who last called you? Danny

47)Are you afraid of the dark? Kinda

48)What is the most expensive thing you ever bought? lol i don't know i don't buy expensive things i get the bought for me.

49)What should you be doing right now?nothing really

50)What number do you call most often? Danny

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-04T23:35:00

2006-07-05T03:45:46Z

the last few days have been friggin awsome

Sunday was my birthday...WOOT finally 18 and legal bitches!!!. Me and chris went to the burlington mall and i spent mucho amounts of money.. I love shopping!!! Then i went to the 99 with my aunt and my cousins. and came home and had ice cream cake. HEHE i love my birthdat

Monday- went to the firework with EVERYONE!. Me chris lindsey matt and ry watched the lynn beach fireworks. we saw like a whole bunch of people. some that are stupid and no one likes. lol. The fireworks were really cool. After they were over, we met up with jake and gaby and some of her friends..Then went to kiely park where lindseys uncle was lighting off more fireworks. Its was fucking awsome.

i didn't realize untill yesterday how much i really do miss hanging out with all of them. They are like the coolest kids ever. I'm so glad i get to call them my best friends (ok end cornyness here.)

today was pretty lame. went to a cookout and thats about it..
other than that
so far summer 06 is everything i have hoped it would be

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-02T13:19:00

2006-07-02T17:23:35Z

i hate when people fuckig lie to me.

If you didn't want to do something

Just fuckig say it

Happy fucking birthday ...

blackfairy44 @ 2006-07-02T00:57:00

2006-07-02T05:01:32Z

YAHHH!!!!!
♥

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-30T23:35:00

2006-07-01T03:40:13Z

I'm a huge mess.

Who the fuck knows whats going on in my mind anymore

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-28T18:32:00

2006-06-28T22:34:22Z

orientation was fucking awsome. I met so many cool new people. And i cannot wait to go to school in the fall. I still can't believe that i'm going to college. It still doesn't feel real to me. I still feel like in the fall i'll be getting ready to walk over to english. But its not going to be like that. and it is kinda scary.
But soo fucking awsome

oh yah. I'm moving to lynnfield friday. I know ya'll will miss having me in lynn. But don't think that will get you out of hanging out with me all summer

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-23T17:05:00

2006-06-23T21:05:35Z

Name (as shown on birth certificate): Cassandra Lynn Couillard
D.O.B (no lies.): July 2 1988
Where were you born?: Arlingtion
Where do you currently reside?: Lynn. for the next week then Lynnfield
Born late, early, or just in time?: a month early from what i have been tolf
In what order were you born?: Only me

Ok, so we've got the background. Let's learn a little more about YOU.
Hair/Eye Color: Brown hair hazle eyes
Are you happy with yourself in these aspects?: they are ok. I wish my eyes where greener..
What would you change about each? greener eyes and straighter hair
Anything you are physically ashamed of?: i'm a fattie
Any piercings/ink?: ears for now. Belly button and something else to follow this summer. Tattoo as soon as i get my ID and money
If so, are you satisified or do you want more?: moooooorre...
Do you pamper yourself occassionally?oooh yah
If so, how?: do my nails, take a nice long shower. pedicure it up.. heheh i like being a girl sometimes
Do you have glasses/contacts? i should have glasses
Do you have freckles?: unfortunatly
What's your build (truthfully)?: i'm short, fat , and have a large rack lol
What kind of deoderant do you use?: Adidas
What about shampoo?: V05
What does your hair look like right now?: pretty gross cuz its in a poney tail. and i havent showered yet
What about on a normal basis?: normally it looks pretty good
Last chance to add anything on the physical appearance I have forgotten: I'm not pretty, But i like to pretend i am
Let's get to know the REAL you. You know, the stuff on the inside. ARE YOU:
Serious/Light-hearted?: alot of both. It all depends on my mood and whats going on
Dry/Out there - who knows
Selfish/Selfless?: Depends, when it comes to most things i can be selfless. When it comes to spending time with boyfriend. i'm wicked selfish. i'll admit it
Academic/Athletic?: I'm better at school. But i love sports more
Trusting/TrustWORTHY?: trustworthy. I don't like to tell people alot. I don't think there is someone who knows everything about me.
Happy on the inside AND outside?:for the first time in a very long time i am.
Easy/Hard to talk to?: Easy to talk to
... able to open up to others easily?: kinda sorta
Stressed out at times?: yes yes i do.
Heartbroken?: Nope soooo in looove
Honest with yourself?: yes
A heartbreaker?: nope not at all
In love?: so in love!!!!
... loved?: He tells me he loves me all the time. So i hope he is tell the truth.
Smart?: I dont think i am. But people do say i am
Open to suggestions?: yah
Open to change?: I'm getting better at accepting change.
Religious?: Not at all
A good friend?: I do believe i am. I love my friends more than anything. And if they are true friends i would do anything for them.

Hey, speaking of "good friends." Let's explore that, shall we?
Would you rather ...
Have 100 acquaintance "friends"
... or a few CLOSE friends, only ?: a few close friends
If you chose acquaintance friendships: --
Why?: --
What makes the "no strings" style better?: Pretty much nothing.
Do you like to party in large groups?: kinda sorta as long as i know somepeople there
Name some people you would vacation with: Danny if its going to be a romantic type thing. Ashley if it was minless fun and partiieess...a Vaction with the two of them would be awsomly amazing. Cuz i don't think i love anyone more than the 2 of them lol
Where would you go?: Hawaii. Cancun, Cabo, London, Paris, omg like everywhere
Are there people you trust more than others?: OOH yah

If you chose a few CLOSE friends:
Why?: Less drama, less confusion and you can trust them 100%
Ramble off .. oh, let's say: 5 names or less. Only the very closest:
1)Danny, 2)Ashley, 3) Chris 4) Lindsey

Let's talk about friend number ONE.
Are they a good friend?: The best ever
What makes it so?: because he is the sweetest bestest every
ONE word to describe them: wonderful
ONE word to describe your friendship: Amazing
Best memory with ?:Just hanging out and watching tv with cuddling!. i love cuddling

Friend number TWO.
Why are they a good friend?: because even though she lives a million miles away she is always there to help me
What makes them unique to anyone else?: She is beautiful smart and caring. Very rare lol
When and how did you meet?: She is Danny's cousin
ONE word to describe them: Bestest ever!
Do you ever fight?: not a real fight, Just over who is prettier

Friend number THREE.
How are they unique from ONE and TWO?: ive known her since 7th grade
Any nicknames for them? Or for you?: I call her chris.. she calls me Cas.. we are very simple people
Do you talk on the phone?: Sometimes. not alot. Thanks to the great invention that is the internet
What do you wish you could change about them?: .. i don't know. nothing i thnk
Do you fight?: kinda. We only had one real fight. and it wasn't really a fight. i just stoped talking to her
What makes them special?: she is pretty! lol yes chris that makes u special being pretty
Best memory: RI concert trip!!!!

Friend FOUR.
Something not many people know about them: i don't know lol
When did you meet?: when she was in the 8th grade i meet her at SMH anime club.
Share any hobbies?: yah.. we are workout buddies lol
Can they sing?: yes but she wont agree
What kind of music do they like?: a little bit of everything..cept rap lol
Do you fight with them a lot?: not at all
Best memory: Work lol

Sorry, friend FIVE, but I think we get the picture. You have great friends. (Sorry friend 5 you don't exist.

Now, on to music choices, yeah?
Band: Taking back sunday
Best Song: New American Classic
Another Band: Fall out boy
Best Song: Grand Theft Autumn
Another?: Ashley Parker Angel
Best Song: Let you go
Come on, one more band: Backstreet boys
... and, the song?: Quite playing games with my heart
Is there a station that you like the best?: I kiss 108
What music do you HATE?: Rap]
Is there a song for every emotion?: Yess
Which are you feeling right now?: annoyed
What's your FAVORITE all time song (as of now)?: Punk rock princess

Enough with MUSIC. On to RELATIONSHIPS!
Status?: TAKEN
Like it?: soooo in love
Last relationship length: 10 months and going
real relationship?: the bestest one is the one i'm in now.
Longest relationship: 10 months and going
Shortest relationship: 2 weeks
Best memory: just being with him.
Worst memory: Everytime he has to leave.
Do you have a crush right now?:Oh yah
Names, please.Danny! lol
First kiss: wheni was like 12. .
Virgin?: Nope.
Best relationship advice ever received: i don't really think i have ever gotten any
Best relationship quote ever heard: Can't think of one.
Are you, or have you ever BEEN in love?:I am in love. and its the best ever
What IS love, exactly?: its not something you can explain
Do you want to fall in love?: I'm already in love. and i couldn't imagine loving anyone else
Marriage and kids someday?:ooh yah
Have you met "the one" ?: Yes .
Do you BELIEVE in "the one" ?: Yes
RANDOMosity, basically.
Do you ...
... drink?: sometimes
... party?: when there are some
... smoke?: nope
... drugs?: nope
... tell secrets?: nope
... like to sing?: More than anything else
... dye your hair?: ohhh yah
... drive?: nope
... listen to music while you do hmwk?: Yes
... DO your homework?: yes
... make good gradesYes
... have pets?: nope
... like to read?: Oh yah

HAVE YOU ...
... skinnydipped?: No. not yet
... fallen from a great height?: Jumped from a great height is more like it lol .
... broken a bone?: no
... had a major surgery?: No. .
... kissed a total stranger?: yes
... skydived?: No. I
... bungeejumped?: No
... lost someone you loved?: Yeah
... made new friends?: Yes!! i love new people
... lost old friends?: Yeah but they are dumb any way
... written a song?: I've attempted.
... prayed?: Never have.
... slept under the stars?: oh yah i love camping
... tanned in a bed?: yeah.
... been deep sea fishing?: nope
... loved someone so much it made you cry?: yeah.
... made a mistake that you regretted?: yah
... learned from a mistake?: All the time.
... said something you wanted to take back?: yah
... wished you could go back in time?: sometimes

Just to clear some things up ... and finish this off:
Right/Left Handed: righty
What side of the bed do you sleep on?: whatever side is closest to a wall
Last person you slept with?: Danny
Last person you hugged?: Danny
Last person you called?: My dad
Last person you kissed?: Danny
Last person who called YOU?: my dad
Last person you texted?: Lindsey
Last person who texted YOU?:Lindsey
Last IM? Chris
Last thing you thought?: i hate food
Last thing you said aloud?: nothing
What was the last thing you wanted to say .. but didnt?: oooh i wish i could say

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-22T14:20:00

2006-06-22T18:20:50Z

i really do hate her

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-22T12:03:00

2006-06-22T16:07:18Z

Hung out with keren yesterday which was AWSOME cuz i miss her like crazy.
we went to the beach and taned
then we picked up Katlyn from work and went to TjMax. Wich is now one of my FAVORTIE stores.
we did some shopping then i came home
Read for a while watched some sweet tv. then slept. lol
I lead such an exciteding life.

i ♥ Summer!

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-20T20:37:00

2006-06-21T00:41:01Z

Wow i haven't had a real update in a long time.
Mostly because i usually update this thing when i'm upset or sad
And i haven't been that way in a while.
Ive been stressed, but what else is new lol.
-I'm moving into lynnfield in a week or so
-I have orientation at SNHU on the 27th. And i'm sooo excited for it.
-I'm so excited to be working at the Country Club. Its such a blast i love waitressing.
- I can't wait to go off to school and get away from certian people.
-I can't wait to make new friends
- I cant wait to start all over.

blackfairy44 @ 2006-06-18T23:44:00

2006-06-19T03:47:17Z

i fucking miss you already.

6 months till i get to see you again.
6 months to look amazing before i see you again.

Summer is so awsome.
2 and a half months to lose some weight before school.
Its going to be hard but i'm going to do it
I have to.